Pacing &Tightropes

Off my tightrope I fall, unable to balance too much and too little.
I am too much and too little,  alternating between bombarding and hiding from the Others.
I am the participant and observer, sometimes cheering for, sometimes jeering at my graceless efforts at balance.
I pace in circles and wander in loops, easily distracted; Not the thing for high wire acts.
Not the stuff, pacing in circles on tightropes:
You fall every time.